Thursday, January 12, 2012

Deep and Wide

Wow, well it sure has been a long time since I have blogged (more on that later).  Two nights ago, on the Eve of my sister's return to work I could not stop thinking about the song "Deep and Wide".  There are a million things I'd love to blog about, but right now this is what comes to mind... 
Heidi has been through a lot lately with her health and has not been able to work for a few months.  On the eve of her return to work I lay awake with a fever and the flu, yet all I could keep thinking about were the videos we have of Heidi around the age of 3 or 4 walking around my parents old braided rug (over and over again) during her Sunday mornings spent with our nanny Angela (she had to stay away from the germs at church after her bonemarrow transplant) as she sang along to worship songs.  One particular song she repeatedly sang (and made many appropriate gestures with) was "Deep and Wide" (...there's a fountain flowing deep and wide...)

I reflected on the many burdens she has had to bear throughout the years (thanks be to God, not on her own), and I reflected on the inumerable provisions of God in her life.  While it is a fairly simple song, I just kept singing to myself "Deep and wide...yes Lord, your provisions for Heidi have been deep and wide...and Lord, I believe they will continue to be deep and wide!" 

I am encouraged by Ephesians 3:14-19 (NLT)...

... 14 When I think of all this, I fall to my knees and pray to the Father,[e] 15 the Creator of everything in heaven and on earth.[f] 16 I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will empower you with inner strength through his Spirit. 17 Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him. Your roots will grow down into God’s love and keep you strong. 18 And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is (emphasis mine). 19 May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God.

(What a gorgeous and strong Auntie Cameron has!)

While Heidi's situation is certainly not "fixed", we have so much to be thankful for.  My prayer for she and our family during this season is for an unwavering trust in God's "unlimited resources", a desire for "deep roots", and a faith in "how wide, long, high, and deep" God's love is for all of us. 

Friday, November 11, 2011

Sweet smells and a tasty recipe

While it is my husband who has the very defined nostrils in our family (and most likely our children- love you honey!), I am the one driven by smell.  In fact, my nose is almost like a mood ring! 

Sweet smells -->happy thoughts
Not so sweet smells --> well, you know ;)

I love the smells of the fall and winter best- leaves, fresh baking, candles burning, cozy fires. 

Yesterday I was especially pleased when I began making some home-made teething biscuits for Cameron and was surprised at how they made the house smell so delicious! 

I thought I would share the recipe here for any mommies who might enjoy the recipe.  Cameron LOVED them as they melted in his mouth (no choking here) and crumbled all over his lap (I'm still working on getting over this aspect of motherhood ;)).  Teething biscuits and kids snacks are so expensive in the stores- not to mention full of random junk.  I think this recipe is originally from a vegan (adult food) cookbook.  I tried a biscuit and enjoyed it myself!  We will be making more ;). 

Oats & 'Naner Drops recipes without eggs recipes without wheat submitted by Karla
Ingredients:
1 c quick oats
1 c ground oats (grind oats and make a coarse oat flour) (I only had 1 ripe banana so I used 1 c ground quick oats and halved the rest of the recipe)
  1/4 t salt (I omitted this)
 1/4 t cinnamon or ginger or cardamom (I used cinnamon)
1/4 t nutmeg
1 t baking powder
1 c (~2) overripe bananas, mashed
1 t vanilla extract
3 T oil of choice (I used vegetable)

Directions:
Mix dry, mix wet, add wet to dry. Drop by the spoonful (I shaped them into little nuggets) onto parchment paper or greased baking sheet. Bake 12-15 min at 350. (adapted from a vegan cookbook)

Hmm...I wonder if pumpkin puree or apples would work in this recipe in place of banana? 

Here is the great baby food website I got this recipe from: http://wholesomebabyfood.momtastic.com/teethingbiscuits.htm

Enjoy!

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

6 Months Old

Boy oh boy a lot can happen in one month's time!  We arrived back to Jacksonville with the help of Nana when Cameron was 5 1/2 months old.  We have been doing great settling in here.  At first, strangers, the crib, and this house were all very unfamiliar and unsettling to the poor little guy, but he warmed up quickly.  He now is back to his usual flirting self at the grocery store, the Naval Hospital, on walks in the neighborhood, at church, and with friends. 
Cameron is now almost 28 weeks old and weighs in at 14.6 pounds (35%) and 27.5 inches (85%).  That's a little less than a pound gained and an inch and a half grown in two months. 

Cameron is beginning to sit up with the support of one or two arms for a few seconds at a time but quickly topples over.  He has been rolling much more! Shortly after our arrival here he began solid foods and he also began napping longer (2-3 hours) 2 or 3 times a day instead of his 5-6 1 hour naps.  He has learned to like many foods!  So far we have tried: Oats, barley, rice, apples, bananas, avocado, nectarines, green beans, peas, sweet potatoes, carrots, and asparagus.  The only vegetable he has been hesitant with is asparagus, however, he definitely opens his mouth wideset for the breakfast cereals and dinner time fruits!  He is becoming a foodie at a young age gladly accepting his oatmeal with cinnamon or his barley mixed with apples.  I have been making my own food and when some gets on my finger I am actually willing to lick it off my finger instead of going to get a napkin like I might with processed baby food- so that says something!  It is delish!

Cameron has discovered that he loves to swim!  Pulling him out of the bathtub is not a happy time ;).  Cameron also continues to love the outdoors- whenever he fusses a bit, that's right where we go and he calms. 

Cameron isn't the only one who had some adjusting to do upon our return.  Teddy began (or should we say "I began") training with Ms. Lisa within days of our return.  He has made a lot of progress but also has a long way to go.  We are working towards him becoming a Canine Good Citizen.  If he passes, I would love to begin ministering with Cameron and Teddy by visiting seniors in our church or in nursing homes locally.  That may be a ways down the road yet for Teddy, but I believe we can do it!  He is a great pup and I am learning new things about him every day that help me to make him feel less anxiety and like more of a follower than a leader. 

In addition to Cameron and Teddy having adjustments, I have had many adjustments as well!  I was planning on returning to work 1 day a week in order to keep my foot in the door, however, long story short- Cameron wouldn't take a bottle.  I recently turned in my resignation and it has been something I really have struggled adjusting to.  Don't get me wrong- I LOVE being home with Cameron.  I honestly don't really want to go back at this point, but I struggled deeply with a.) my plan not working out like I planned b.) not contributing to our family in the same way I used to c.) wondering when/if I will re-enter my field.  Right now, it has become very clear that my "field" is being a mommy and I am loving it.  Life with Cameron has really caused me to grow deeper in my walk with the Lord- nothing is predictable or planned! 

Laura Schlessinger (from "In Praise of Stay-at-home Moms") wrote, "you notice that in hurricane-level winds, it's the tree that gracefully bends that doesn't break.  You have to become that graceful tree."  While this is a secular book, this quote struck me as a new mom and in my spiritual walk.  I do not always want to bend gracefully- I want it my way!  I have also really enjoyed attending a new mom Bible study at our church which has been incredibly rich and encouraging. 

We are enjoying life as we know it right now- daily runs/walks the three of us, naptimes, shared mealtimes, training times, Bible studies, quiet evenings, get togethers, and much more but we long to enjoy these things as a family of "four" very very soon!! 




 
(I included this picture just in case anyone thought Cameron never cried ;).  How sad.  Poor guy was WAY ready for a nap and I was trying on some silly hat)